fairytales and peter pan

i've decided i don't know who i really am. i have a general idea. but i would like to know all the details. i can't discover them if i'm too busy fussing over some guy, making sure his needs are met and i can't afford to lose the precious time i have by being hurt because he's too self-absorbed to meet my needs.

i want to see the world. i want to revisit my fairytales, fall in love with peter pan all over again. i want to see my dark side as well as my shining light side. i will follow my dreams. i wanna write, i wanna sing, i wanna dance and i don't want anyone to tell me i can't. i want to live in the fairytale i've been creating all these years. i want to complete it. i want mara & parks to find their fairy friend, i want them to save the day. i want to create 11 more adventures for children to sink their teeth into and swim with mermaids and play with pixies in the tall grasses.

guys are out of the picture. am i fully swearing them off? no. but am i going to make any effort to be anything but commonly friendly? no. by october of next year i want to be fully comfortable with who i am as a woman, as a writer, as a goofball, as everything i am before i become comfortable with being whomever's girlfriend.


besides....boys are stupid anyway ;)